I Am the Highway

Wake up: 4:40 am—the baby got up. I can't really complain though. He usually sleeps past 6. He actually had gotten up at 3-something but Shawn got him back to sleep for an hour.
Slept for: About five and a half hours.
First thought is: Guess I have to get up this time.
Baby is: Back to sleep now. At 5:30, after he was done eating, I thought about going back to sleep, but I realized my time would be better served if I got some work done.
This is: Great...for now. Presently, I feel ready to take on the world. I am sure that I'll be tired by 9.
Daughter is: Three. She's just three years old and she has every bit of the attitude of a teenager—or at least what I remember having as a teenager. When I told her she couldn't do something last night, she told me that she didn't love me. I couldn't believe it. How did that concept even enter into her brain? She later apologized and then proceeded to tell me that she loved me and have her dollies tell me that they love me.
This is: Honestly, kind of hurtful. I mean, I get it, and I contained it (didn't let the thoughts turn into other thoughts and feelings), but I can't help but being a bit taken aback.
Man is: Well, my mom has a saying: "Stick a broom up my butt and I'll sweep, too." Lovely.
Anyway, this would sum his week up.
This is: Just how it goes. I do wonder about when we will reach a point where he isn't working 70+ hours a week and doing so much for everyone else and mowing the lawn and pulling the weeds and fixing up the house and fixing everyone's computers. I guess that's kind of what dads do—or good dads. The lawn stuff could be crossed off of his list—but he says he actually likes it.
Goal for the day: Eat clean, clean the house, workout, work
Kabbalah says: "Chaos is the misperception that there are no connections. In fact, everything is connected. Everything."
First bananas thought: Yes, we have no bananas. We have no bananas today.
Arrive at gym: 7:50 am
Workout is: Cardio only. I really pushed myself. I saw how it was my instinct to slow down and labor more when the plane or the level got higher. I didn't let it happen for more than a second though. I consciously made an effort to continue to push hard and remain on the same level of intensity regardless of how difficult the course continued to get. Then, at the end, I started to slow down—say, about ten seconds before the course was over. But I picked it back up. Taking things to 100 percent with maximum intensity, drive and focus is what life is all about. Imagine if we all were always at 100 percent with things: our word, our follow through, our actions, our health regimes, our one-on-one time with our kids or our mates. Imagine what kind of a world we'd live in. It's all about driving. You just have to keep driving.
Today's song is: I Am the Highway by Audioslave
Best lyric is: Friends and liars don't wait for me
'Cause I'll get on all by myself
Best spam subject line: I have only 5 emails in my junk mail. I can't believe it. I wonder if Comcast strengthened its firewall or if the spammers have moved on.
It's the best because: What, I'm not spam worthy now?
I want: Solar panels like Larry Hagman has.
I love: When my hair dries well. Hey, you can be deep all the time!
I wish: I had a white Halston pants suit a la Bianca Jagger.
I am totally, majorly obsessing over: Following the daily eating plan that I devise for myself nightly.
Being a mom means: Focus.
Being a wife means: Being on the same page.
Being a business owner means: Going big or going home. Wait, I am home. Okay, just going big.
Out of the mouths of babes: "You're in a time out!" Now, we haven't really put her in time outs yet. I put her in one once. So, this is coming from school. My little angel baby in a time out? Gasp!
Today I ate: Mixed veggie juice (fresh), shot of wheat grass, salad of romaine, strawberries, almond slivers, 1/4 avocado, lemon juice and olive oil (I am living for this salad), protein shake with almond milk. Tonight I'll have fish and vegetables. We're probably going out for dinner, so I am sure I'll have a drink. I wish that I could abstain. I mean, I know I have a choice. I know that I am in control of it, but I also know that I will want to have a drink once we're out.
Today I drank: Hot water with lemon in the morning, water all day and 1/4 cup of coffee with almond milk. I have been up since 4:50 this morning—I had to do something.
Work was: Layered.
Today I learned: The truth shall set you free. Speak it—even if you think that it won't be accepted. Speak the truth.
I am: Messing with my cuticles.
Tomorrow I will: Be closer to attaining my goals.